Suicide Note

Dear God,

Everyday, form the moment I woke, I wondered painfully of it was all right for me to be by your side. I wondered if I was still qualified to walk in Your steps. But even as I wondered, I loved listening to hymns in Your praise. I loved watching the candlelight ceremony.

I’m sorry. God, I’m sorry. Because of me, there will be people who will question You. But I can accomplish the greatest atonement, they will probably cease their mouths. No one will ever dirty your name again.

There will be no compensation for disgracing You as I have. There will be no way to erase my sin. But still I wish that…

I’m sorry, God. Please grant me an execution.

Goodbye.

Morizumi Setsu

For some reason, I grew fond of collecting suicide note. It’s such a waste to just keep them to myself, therefore, I thought of sharing them with you.

This note was taken from Diamond Head. Setsu e-mailed it to his best friend, before he jumped off the a building. After enough investigation, they found out that when Setsu moved with his parents to US, he couldn’t stand the emotional damage he was getting so he took drugs to forget them. Even when he returned to Japan, he was so addicted that his body craved for it no matter how he wanted to stop. Even so, he still wanted to stop.

It was after he died that they found out why they never see him attend masses even though he loves God more than anything. It was because he always stay hiding behind the altar in those times. Maybe because he never had any face left to face his creator.

21 responses to “Suicide Note”

  1. Chino Avatar
    Chino

    He jumped because he is addicted to drugs? He should’ve just went to a rehab. Anyway, too late for me to say that.

    I don’t believe that you’ll go anywhere when you die. So may he rest in peace.

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  2. Najo Avatar
    Najo

    I stopped writing suicide notes when I was 14.

    And I’m glad I stopped.

    🙂

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  3. Euri Avatar
    Euri

    @ Chino ~
    I don’t know about you, but I think rehabs doesn’t really work and/or rehabs doesn’t work for all people. I had a friend who’s gone to the rehab for 2 years, when he got out, nothing changed. He was thrown to Australia for another rehab. When he returned, he became worse.

    @ Najo ~
    Not even once in this lifetime I wrote a suicide note. However, I am fond of collecting suicide notes and reading them over and over. It always takes me back to that feeling of who I really am.

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  4. Gean Avatar
    Gean

    What’s Diamond Head?
    I think collecting suicide notes are cool. Hehe. (just collecting)

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  5. Jellie Avatar
    Jellie

    if I’d ever write a suicide note, it’d be written in a wall or mirror… and in BLOOD. LOL. *okay, nothing funny… tsk!*

    anyway, that’s interesting. He committed suicide coz he couldn’t take and decided to give up. RIght? That’s usually it… *sigh*

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  6. Euri Avatar
    Euri

    @ Gean ~
    Diamond Head is a manga.

    @ Jellie ~
    I think, he committed suicide to stop himself from craving for more drugs. That’s the only solution he could find.

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  7. belle Avatar
    belle

    i think he jumped because he was ashamed of himself that he still craved drugs although he knows it’s wrong. he thought he had disgraced himself in God’s eyes?

    just joining in the opinion-giving hehe.

    i missed this site, euri. welcome back. ^o~

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  8. Vincent Avatar
    Vincent

    Suicides notes are someone soul who have strayed, weaken, hunger, and the lost. There last words are there only way to speak their mind, there voices long gone shattered and broken.

    i was once one of them… if I hadn’t defeated my depression surely I will be part of your collection.

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  9. Nicole Avatar
    Nicole

    waahh! Why are you collecting these?! Lol.

    Well, I didn’t read it..baka madiri ako eh? No offense. 🙂

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  10. Kris Avatar
    Kris

    Japan has the highest suicide incidence in the world. Next ata ang US of A.

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  11. Euri Avatar
    Euri

    @ Nicole ~
    I collect them because I find them beautiful. Of all things, I find suicide notes the most truthful reflection of a person’s soul.

    @ Vincent ~
    You can always write suicide notes however many times you wanted. But you can only kill yourself once. If you feel like writing, how about donate them to me? I would love to add them to my collection. However, it doesn’t necessarily mean that you kill yourself as soon as you donate them.

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  12. Shannon Avatar
    Shannon

    Mmm, suicide notes. I have to agree with you on finding them the most truthful reflection of a person’s soul. I never thought about collecting them though. I wrote a suicide note once. I don’t know what happened to it though. That was a long time ago…I’m really glad I don’t feel the need to do such things anymore. 🙁

    I really need to upgrade WordPress. What a pain it’s gonna be, reinstalling all my stuff. I think I’ll leave that for a weekend project. Right now I’m too busy with school and work (only two weeks of school left!!!).

    Sorry to hear about your site getting hacked 54,937 times! That really sucks. My site (saturninedream) has only been hacked once – and they just changed the index page, that was it. Very small hack and easy to correct. I haven’t had any problems since.

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  13. Najo Avatar
    Najo

    There are people who want to end sufferings asap.

    BTW, may Internet na ako. ^^

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  14. Euri Avatar
    Euri

    Good. Then start putting Takipsilim back up! XP

    Reply
  15. aruki Avatar
    aruki

    I collect them because I find them beautiful. Of all things, I find suicide notes the most truthful reflection of a person’s soul.

    I totally agree. Although I haven’t written any suicide letters, nor do I plan to do such, they may be considered as the “most truthful reflection of a person’s soul” simply because the words are written at a time in a person’s life where they are on the verge of either turning back or continuing the plan of committing suicide.

    It’s like a testimonial to the world that he/she has made a decision to end the borrowed life, but also demanding for time to stop, shouting that Mother Earth lament for Her loss. Beautiful yet… sad.

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  16. Flamegod Avatar
    Flamegod

    I love the suicide notes! :). We should make a blog for it.

    Reply
  17. runawaycat Avatar
    runawaycat

    Hmm…I’ve never thought of reading suicide notes. I think it’s cool. Where can I find them?

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  18. Euri Avatar
    Euri

    @ runawaycat ~
    Hey dear, suicide notes are interesting. I’ll get that site done first and I’ll inform you when I had uploaded them.

    Reply
  19. runawaycat Avatar
    runawaycat

    ok thanks! 😀

    Reply
  20. katykat Avatar
    katykat

    why do people enjoy reaing suicide notes?
    because it’s simply a true reflection on a person’s soul.
    Read Kurt Cobains
    it’s the most honest thing I have ever read in my life.

    Reply
  21. ashley nicky Avatar
    ashley nicky

    This post is a little bit depressive, but I enjoy this kind of writing way. I find that posts in this site are quite emotional.

    Reply

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