Exactly 40 days ago, I lost one of my life’s most important pillars. I can’t even begin to describe how I’m feeling right now. I couldn’t remember exactly how I felt that night when I heard the news. But I can remember the scene clearly, and I’ll probably never forget them. I remembered my mom calling me and telling me […]

I just read your email. I’m sorry if I’m just facing this issue now. I had more pressing matters to attend to than this. As you know, my father died. And this issue just had to appear at the exact same time. Before all this, I knew there was something. I just didn’t know where and what exactly. I didn’t […]

Today’s my Dad’s 7th day. The week was a hell to us all. I can’t describe it well with words but it was fuck painful. Just a while ago, I found the urge to bit myself for some reason, so I did it. I tore a bit of my skin. It doesn’t bleed, but it stings. But the pain from […]

The first time I slept in a while. I woke up waiting for my dad to barge in the room and yell at us to hurry our asses up for breakfast. But he didn’t. I waited still, hugging my bolster pillow, until I finally realized that I’m already awake. I wanted to go back to sleep. I want to stay […]

Baby, dear. Don’t say that. I know how you feel, but you have to think this through. Right now, maybe, you think that just being with him is enough. But when you’re already with him, sooner or later, you would want more. You will never be satisfied with just calling him yours. You would also want his heart, his love, […]