Staring into space
I broke into tears.
I am frightened.
So frightened of everything.
I screamed as loud as I can
So that my voice could be heard.
I screamed until my voice starts to fade
To know how far my voice could reach.
I kept wondering
Of what lies ahead.
I kept holding on
Of what’s within my grasp.
I wanna see
What the future holds.
I wanna peak
At that one day years ahead.
Even if it means
I have an undesired future.
At least, I know,
Which way I should go.
I keep on stalling.
And it felt like forever.
I keep on shaking,
Too frightened for just one step.
I wonder if
This feeling would fade someday.
I wonder when
This feet would stop shivering.
Will that day come
That I would be brave enough to say
That despite it all,
I still took that one step.
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of course I’ll know Randy forever. And I am greatful for him forever. But just a note or a clarification about my Blog post.
I put randy in my post not because I want him to see that. I put it because it is a testimony. That God answered one of the prayers.
So it doesnt matter if he sees it or not. I am just thankful that he made that prayer before okie? 😀
I love this piece. The ironic part? I just went through that situation last night. No joke. Even more so I realize that every single thing you wrote is something I experienced. I couldn’t put it into words, but thank you for doing that. It’s heartbreaking, raw, and real. Beautiful. <3
Chette,
You putting Randy’s name in your blog entries for whatever reason may it be, is none of my concern. It’s your blog anyway. 🙂 I just said that in reply to your statement on your entry that states:
I pointed that out in defense of Randy because he is never the type of person “who doesn’t care”. More than anyone, he cared and still cares for the both of you. If he didn’t care, he wouldn’t have shared God to the both of you. If he doesn’t care now, he would’ve been the one who bashed you himself. He cares so he kept silent and left you be. Simply because you’re happy. So never say that phrase.
It’s just that you can’t see that side of people. Maybe because you yourself had neglected, forgotten, or just don’t give a damn anymore.
Moon child,
My poetry are always heartbreaking because they are true. Because they reflect the exact feelings I portray. You were hurt every single time you read my poetry because you have a great heart that enables you to feel people’s pains. And you feel my pains… You find it beautiful because you see beauty in people’s emotions, you see beauty even if the face is covered in tears.
I love this piece of writing!
Wow, this is so beautiful… I personally love writing poetry, and reading nice things makes me feel really good – this goes in so deep, it is as if I can feel every word… 🙂
I love it. My heart throbbed while reading it. Maybe because it reminds me of something…….
you really like this kind of poetry, ne? Teehee! I’m starting to be a fan of yours XD
anyways, please change my link. I have problems with ametsuki.org so I move. 😀
http://xii.terebi-adikz.com
Life is so confusing. I also wish I knew which was things were going to turn out, at least career wise. I’m so confused about what I should do right now. I had everything all planned out but then it didn’t happen the way it was supposed to and just turned my whole life sideways (as opposed to upside down because my life is still great). I hate the anxiousness of not knowing.
I am loving your poetry. Did you ever check out mine at my site?
Nice poem, i cam here thinking this is a tech related blog. But enjoyed it.