Dear God

Dear God, do you know?
My love to you is whole heartedly true.
So much that I’m willing to give up everything.
So much that I would die without you near.

Dear God, do you realize?
How much how much I needed you?
You are my every morning, my every smile.
You are my every energy, my very life.

But dear God, did you know?
The path to you is a path of thorns.
My feet are filled with wounds each day.
It hurts like hell, but I still walked on.

Dear God, have you realized?
Loving you is the most painful.
The more my love grows for you,
The more this love wounds me deep.

Dear God, I wanted to tell you these things
Though it may hurt as both.
I just can’t find the right words for it
But I hope it could somehow be understood.

I cannot be as obedient as your Abraham.
Nor I can be as wise as your Solomon.
I cannot be as brave as David.
Nor I can be as great as your son.

I can only be that Cain
Who gets jealous all the time.
I can only be that Lucifer
Who wanted to break out of your light.

Dear God, did you know?
Your light is already blinding me.
Dear God, did you know?
Your righteousness is slowly killing me.

Dear God, I’m sorry.
I can never be a light to you.
Nor I can be as kind as you,
Nor I can be as great as you.

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23 Comments

  1. Nice prayer ๐Ÿ™‚ it reminds me of a my past prayer. I thought I will always be Lucifer, Cain and Judas.

    But God did change me ๐Ÿ™‚
    IM glad He did not give up on me ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. nice
    actually, it reminds me of how i feel sometimes when i’m lonely and i feel like ‘wow..i can’t amount to anything good’ but im glad that God is always there to listen to me when others don’t. :3 it’s so comforting for me n_n

  3. Benj,
    Not that I know of. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Konig,
    I am aware of the error. For some reason, I can’t change it. It has something to do with my max execution time that I’ve been telling my host that he insists, not possible on which, I know so, that is possible to increase. XP My only option to change that is manually through PhpMyAdmin, which is really troublesome so it has to wait.

    Khei,
    What huh?

  4. Philip: Sino ba ang nagmamahal na di nasasaktan? Eh nagmamahal ka kaya ka nasasaktan.

    Chette: Masakit talagang mabuhay na mahal mo ang Diyos; kasi enemy nang mundo ang mga taong minamahal ang Diyos. Jesus never promise that the Christianity is easy; As a matter of fact He even said that His followers will undergo pain and persecution. Like I always say Christianity is very very hard; but the reward is out of this world ๐Ÿ™‚ Masarap mahalin ang Diyos.

    Philip: mas malala ang buhay ko nuun kaysa sa iyo. Alam mo yun. At nakita mo na kahit isa akong na label na :”Loser” sa Ama at di pa nakakatapos ngayon. Ang pagpapala sa akin nang Diyos ay di nawawala. Maliwanag talaga ang Diyos pero masasanay ka rin at di ka mabibigo pag siya ay inibig mo.

    Chette: Napakatagalog mo philip
    Philip: Pasensya na di ako marunong kapangpangan.
    Chette: LOL!

  5. I also had a similar prayer before. When you begin to be honest about yourself and what you truly feel about God, you would barely find anything good to say to him. I guess that’s what you get from a perfect being demanding his imperfect creations to be perfect. Both sides will be utterly frustrated in the end.

    Of course I know better now. The Christian God does not exist. And that explains so many things about life which are quite nonsensical if viewed under a worldview where such God is in existence.

  6. If there was no God, I wouldn’t have passed math. Science or knowledge couldn’t explain nor help me with how I got out of that predicament.

  7. My dearest readers,
    Poetry aren’t supposed to be read as they are. That is why there’s this thing called “metaphor.”

    The Prize,
    God created us to be imperfect because if he himself is imperfect. He, too, makes mistakes. And so we were created because of it.

    Anonymous,
    Do not use your exam result as a proof of God existence. It doesn’t sound right.

    God does not teach you Math. God creates people and leave them to live in this world. He doesn’t care what things you do with your life. At the end of it all, he would decide with way you should go, above or below, depending on the result of your futile attempt to live.

    In my opinion, you got out of that predicament simply because you learned how to do it. You might not have studied for that exam, but the fact that you know how to do it (the process of solving it), would give you uncertain results. Still, there’s a result. Math is not something you need faith to go through. What you need to go through Math problems are a brain you use simply for a careful thinking, and patience to go through the annoying numbers.

  8. When you look at it that way, there is no God. I like how your write and think by the way.

  9. That is because I think, that God existence depends on people’s faith. Therefore, if a person does not believe in God, for that person, it’s safe to say that God doesn’t exists.

    Refusing to believe, however is a different thing. If a person refuses to believe that he existed, at some part of that person, he knows God exists. He just doesn’t want to show his gratitude to him. That’s where “denial” enters.

  10. what do u mean by php error? Konig was just letting you know of a “typo” error… X-P

  11. :lmao: Yeah, I did said:

    I am aware of the error. For some reason, I can’t change it. It has something to do with my max execution time that I’ve been telling my host that he insists, not possible on which, I know so, that is possible to increase. XP My only option to change that is manually through PhpMyAdmin, which is really troublesome so it has to wait.

  12. Well, Euri, you seem to suggest that God is imperfect after all – continually learning and perhaps evolving.

    You did a decent job of explaining Post Hoc Ergo Propter Hoc fallacy in simple words. ๐Ÿ˜‰

  13. What? What the heck is a “Post Hoc Ergo Propter Hoc fallacy”?

    According to Wikipedia: <a href=”http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post_hoc_ergo_propter_hoc”” rel=”nofollow”>Post Hoc Ergo Propter Hoc

    Thank you Google! You’re the best friend there exist in this God forsaken land!

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