Now What?

Earlier, I went to a school that offers technical courses and see if I could get a vocational course relating to Clothing Technology. After all those minutes I spent, I went home depressed that the schedule are limited and it conflicts with my working schedule. Thus, I, again, came back here on this same road where I am to decide to quit my job for school or quit my dream for my job.

You know, when you were a student doing sidelines, it’s easier to quit your side jobs. But when you reach that stage that you are already are earning money from working full time, it makes it harder to quit your job. You would always consider the fact that it’s hard to find a job these days and you are even lucky enough to get one.

I do not want to quit my job for that reason. At the same time, I don’t want to give up my dream for my job because seriously speaking, my current job isn’t worth giving up my dream for. Even still, if I pursue my dream, I can’t really tell what lies ahead. That fact, of course, leaves me terribly terrified. I wont have anything definite to hold on to. I wont have any assurance that I would be successful in that field. I have too many what ifs coming in and out of my mind that if I don’t stop thinking about it, I might end up in a mental hospital, considering that I am already a retard. I think too much, I know. But I think, it’s better to think too much than not thinking at all. In that case, your brain would be a waste.

Now what?

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  1. I have thought about what I’m gonna do in future. Eventually, I found what I could do and what I wanna do always conflicted.
    If I were you, I would not quit my job. When what I like becomes what I am living by, it may tire me from then on.

  2. In bed my real love has always been the sleep that rescued me by allowing me to dream. Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.In your heart, keep one still, secret spot where dreams may go and sheltered so may thrive and grow. 🙂

  3. I don’t want to tell you not to feel sad, Eu-chan, since I’ve felt that way before. But I’m pretty sure everything will be fine someday. Someday. You just wait.

  4. I’d tell you to go for your dreams. I for one am too chicken to go for mine and now I’m stuck in a course which I don’t particularly like. I’m only in it because it gives me security. Now that 2 years have passed I don’t know if I know what my dream is anymore. Suddenly life has no meaning. I hope you don’t get to that. We’re the same age by the way and I sound like an cynical old woman haha.

    Go for your dreams. Doesn’t matter if you end up in the pits coz you’ll climb right back up! And the path you’re in now doesn’t necessarily guarantee you a good future too. The future is unpredictable. There’s only so much we can worry about.
    Go! Go!

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