Earlier, I went to a school that offers technical courses and see if I could get a vocational course relating to Clothing Technology. After all those minutes I spent, I went home depressed that the schedule are limited and it conflicts with my working schedule. Thus, I, again, came back here on this same road where I am to decide to quit my job for school or quit my dream for my job.
You know, when you were a student doing sidelines, it’s easier to quit your side jobs. But when you reach that stage that you are already are earning money from working full time, it makes it harder to quit your job. You would always consider the fact that it’s hard to find a job these days and you are even lucky enough to get one.
I do not want to quit my job for that reason. At the same time, I don’t want to give up my dream for my job because seriously speaking, my current job isn’t worth giving up my dream for. Even still, if I pursue my dream, I can’t really tell what lies ahead. That fact, of course, leaves me terribly terrified. I wont have anything definite to hold on to. I wont have any assurance that I would be successful in that field. I have too many what ifs coming in and out of my mind that if I don’t stop thinking about it, I might end up in a mental hospital, considering that I am already a retard. I think too much, I know. But I think, it’s better to think too much than not thinking at all. In that case, your brain would be a waste.