Each Day

Whenever I wake up, I’m forced to see reality. And each time, the pain carves deep into my soul. It makes me want to go back to sleep and just forget everything. Living inside your dreams is better. You can choose which life you wanted to live and who you wanted to live with. Unlike in reality where all you can do is accept it, just vent away your frustrations and move on.

But after having long repeated arguments with myself that actually last a second in reality, I still choose to wake up each time. I still try hard to pull myself up the bed each morning to look at the sun out my window that doesn’t really mean anything to me, feel the warm sun, get blinded by the light, and irritated by the hot weather. It’s like hating vegetables, yet you still eat it because your mom says so – that sort of feeling.

I don’t know why I do this. Maybe, for self-satisfaction. I probably wanted to prove to myself that I can stand on my own feet no matter how painful life can be. And you know, at the end of each day, I only end up saying one phrase over and over… Life, fuck you.

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  1. One of the things I admire about you (Yes I do admire you). That you are a strong person. (Yes you are). Why? Maybe you think you are weak. But you are strong. If I was in your place, I would break down already…

    Gambatte! Every day is a NEW Beginning.

  2. Life is a choice… to be happy. It’s a simple truth I had to rediscover recently (2010 was a hard year for me – deaths of loved ones). You just have to keep moving on and try… because I know that my existence makes a difference in the lives of the people I love. Choose to be wake up. Choose to be happy. Choose to make other people happy.

    Anyway… just visiting the people listed on my Gravatar Commenters Wall and saying hello! Belated Happy New Year! :

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