I haven’t been posting. My life’s gotten pretty damn busy that I don’t even have the time to blog anymore. And I don’t even have anything to blog about. I just thought I would post now to let you guys know that I might be shutting down a few sites I own, I don’t have the time to maintain them anymore. And probably, I might close a few accounts too like my deviantart, friendster, myspace and multiply accounts. I might reconsider this, however. I might just go on a long long hiatus for a while and return later.
Honestly, I’m tired. I’m tired about everything. Everyday life, work, home, and even my only get away from all this – my online life is becoming tiring.
Work. I seldom blog about work. As much as possible, I don’t blog about work. Well, other vampires might have me killed if they found out that I’m been given the great task to have the impure ones haunted one after another. And this are one of those few times that I really have to blog about my feelings from these misadventures. I’m trying really hard to have a better mood everyday, because it’s pretty important for work. Working is like painting something, you know. You have to have the good vibes and the good mood to make it work out well. Work is one thing that is really important to me and that I’m really proud of what I’m doing and what I have done. It it something that I don’t wanna lose. Well, because I have bills to pay, I need to feed myself, and my online gaming allowance also comes from it. But lately, I’ve been loosing that good feeling like I’m enjoying work, you know. I need to have a one on one reflection with myself to find out what’s wrong and/or what’s bothering me.
Online. For one, I’m tired that people just don’t follow rules even though they are clearly stated on the same fucking page, with either huge font or a striking color or something else that would make it standout. Do I have to make every thing blink for people to notice such a few line of rules? And I’m tired of people who doesn’t have their own creativity to think of something else to do and kept on plagiarizing my stuff. And it’s not even mere ideas or concepts, it’s plagiarizing head on – copying and pasting my content to their freaking damn sites. And without even asking for a permission or a credit or whatever. I don’t want to rant about these things anymore. I’m really mad this time. Mad to the point that I don’t even want to think about it anymore.
Myself. I’m tired of myself for ranting too much. I’ve become the person I hate most – the annoying type who has too much to say. But at least, I haven’t fallen so low as to reach that point that I don’t get anything done. I still have hope!
I needed rest. I wanted peace. I wanted to immitate Jeoffrey, who just disappeared one day, had the time of his life to have a peace of mind somewhere, for a while. But I don’t have the guts. Bah, I’m just a sorry ass.