I don’t wanna blame the doctors for not being able to see the cause of grandma’s bleeding. Because I know they did everything they could possibly do. And that I know that doctors are not gods that could grant people’s lives and heal them in a blink of an eye. Like us, doctors are humans too, they might be level headed most of the time, but they feel people’s pain too. They know how hard it is for the family, because they themselves have families of their own. It’s just that they chose to be level headed to save lives rather than freaking and just crying in a nook bitching pathetic things and blaming others for their own weakness.
Seriously, if people have the time to cry because they feel pain, why not find ways to go through it? If you don’t wanna risk anything, then you could just rot in there and blame yourself for being pathetic.
I am not strong. I am not emotionless either. It’s just that I chose not to let my emotions affect my judgment. Because when emotions comes in, all logic goes out the window and all you can see is yourself, how you feel, and how deep your pain is. In one word, it’s selfishness.